Thursday, October 8, 2009

It is Thursday, 8th October 2009, 11:56pm, and in about 4 minutes time it will be Friday and yet another weekend.


Finals results will be released on the 16th of October, which is next Friday. According to my observations, I think I am the ONLY person in my class who is like totally wanting to find out how well I did. I mean, I already can't guarantee myself above 70 rank points, so I just want to find out how "well" I did for Finals? Hopefully it wouldn't be that bad...


Alot of things' happened today, I mean, it is one of those days that I have those random 'mood swings'. I basically went from being pissed off for no reason, to being extremely quiet, to being assertive towards my group members, to being totally nice again, to being totally stunned by a certain fact and yea, you get the picture. Basically these past few days have been hell for me.


Tomorrow would be the last day for PW week. Have I pulled through successfully? To say the very least, this week is officially the worst week I've ever had in my entire life, with only myself to blame. As most of you should know, (I mean, you come to my blog, so you must know me in person duh!) I have a sensitive nose from birth. Due to the stupid haze from the forest fires in Indonesia that has already travelled to Singapore, I'm one of those victim who truly suffered the most this week. What's more, they are putting 2 of the most irritating subjects, namely Project Work and Chinese, into this week, as if all of us are robots and are able to carry out our group discussion without any problem at all. Yes, you all have guessed it, I am not really fine with my group right now...



Here's the thing about PW, basically the whole thing for PW: You have to con-tri-bute. If you don't contribute, you are more or less trash in your group. It is weird that I am currently the 'trash' in my group and have just stated it and feel nothing about it. Maybe it is because I have sort of thought about it with some thoughtful help from Leon. If you don't want a D for your PW, go ahead and carry out research to boost your Written Report! Go ahead and take the initiative and just make your Written Report as amazing as possible. The only thing is - can I do it? Well we'll see by next Monday. I will most probably blog about it before the ultimate Finals results post next Friday.



The next thing I'm going to talk about is relationships. It is surprising and kind of disturbing that I've been in lots of talks about relationships between guys and girls, sexually transmitted infections, BGR, and still know nuts about the topic, despite acting as if I'm some love expert in front of my friends. Ultimately, I'm just a random overweight boy who has not experienced any relationships, so I basically can only listen and tell other people what I think about this and that, pretty sad much?


In my honest opinion, I think that it is really a tough time when you sort of started liking a girl. What I meant is a period of time when everything seems to go well with a particular girl, then you feel that "Hmm this girl may be for me!". After awhile, either you've found out that she just gets along very well with boys, or you wake up from your stupor just in time. It is really a horrible feeling really. It goes to show that you have a weak mental strength. When a regular guy like me chose JC without any girlfriend, I'm supposed to concentrate primarily on studies, namely Biology and Chemistry and so on. He could do very well in his studies but ultimately lack he EQ to even get along well with his own class, without even considering getting himself "the other half" at this stage of life. What I'm trying to stress here is that relationships can wait, no matter how sad it sounds. I mean that I myself have seen couples here and there, some even telling me that they have kissed their other half passionately on the lips before, but damn, this kind of thing just come naturally, don't they. Rather than becoming 'desperate' and try to get a random girlfriend to show off, why not channel the effort into your studies which will ultimately decide your future? I mean, come on, I'm already 17 years old, I do hope that I can stop ranting about this random nonsense anymore and just... be myself???




If you don't understand the above paragraph, it's perfectly normal.





Right now I'm under the medication of Chinese medicine and my nose is feeling much much better. Seriously I should have listened to my mum and go for the Chinese doctor earlier instead of having to suffer for like 4 extra days. Well, that's just yours truly beng stubborn, isn't it?


Let's move on to talk about the past few days, after ranting meaninglessly on relationships as if I am going to find a girlfriend lying on the floor the next morning. As you can tell from before, my PW group isn't doing fine right now. Our Written Report is only like 14% done, and that we're are not united enough to have any synergy for us to practice our Oral Presentation together. I think that the Oral Presentation is the component where it really tests my group's total understanding of the project, or rather, each member's understanding. Looking at myself, I can say that I am 2% prepared for Oral Presentation. I've only read my Written Report once and know nuts about the details of my group's strategies, screwed much? Well I just have to sort everything out by the end of Friday(today), which then I will get help from Leon to familiarise on how to do the Written Report effectively.


Will things turn out fine and that my group leaves the examination hall of the Oral Presentation with smiling and confident faces? Only this crucial period of time will tell. 4H2 timetable resumes next week prior to getting back the results for my Finals. Good luck to myself for everything!



Oh yes, I may have a bowling session with Eugene Chew this coming Saturday. Wow, I've not bowled for like 2 months speaking of which...




Well, my rant is over for now. I promised myself and Tam that I would improve our group's Written Report and I genuinely hope I can accomplish that. It is ironic that we are always looking forward to a particular day to arrive, yet we complain all the time that time is passing way too fast. That's all I've got to say for now, seeya guys!!!
I posted at 11:56 PM